In another life this might have been.

I'm touched. I'm flattered. I'm honoured.

I'm also really, really sorry. Unfortunately, it's just how it is. I hope we'll still be okay.

KITA COOL EH EH.

now my worries are gone.

I'm supposed to be finishing an essay tapi tengah break sekejap sebab otak dah blur macam nak gila. So just nak cakap that my dear sweet adorable super dee duper friend Aliah Selamat made a video for me. Like a proper video, with music and pictures and animation semua tu (tak sangka dia tere buat pulak ahaha) and omg omg omg dah menangis macam apa dah aku tengok weh.

I've never had anyone like literally take their time make a video for me. Nak kumpul gambar, edit, tambah lagu, potong sana potong sini, Ya Allah sumpah terharu sangat tak tahu macam mana nak cakap.

I'd put it up to share her awesome masterpiece here, tapi dalam video tu ada gambar rambut kami berterbangan situ sini hahahah. Ya lah dah room mates mesti lah camwhoring selalu. Hidup kolej Mawar ngahaha.

I love you Aliah, I'll say it a million times. And Aina you too. Berpisah kita bertiga kan, sumpah sedih. We'll meet up when I get back to Malaysia nanti eh. WAJIB!

I got a few snapshots of the really sweet parts in the video that really got the tears flowing. Bayangkan baca benda ni pastu background lagu Count On Me by Bruno Mars tu. Tak basah pulak muka dengan air mata dibuat nya.

WAAAAAAAAAAAA :''( I'm tearing up again just writing this.

I love you beautiful. Jangan lupa kat aku ni tau. Jauh di mata, dekat di hati ecece. Kisses and hugs to the both of you lovely darlings. SKYPE ada okay. Dah dah aku nak buat kerja ni kalau duk tengok muka korang habis basah kertas ni.

Love you.

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1 month! I have survived here for officially 1 month!

Wah, ini macam kena celebrate je. I didn't breakdown rindu Malaysia dan semua yang sewaktu dengan nya. Yay! Macam tak percaya pun ada jugak tau. Pejam celik dah sebulan aku kat sini. What have I been doing actually? Duk termenung je rindu family and friends ahaha. Tak lah. Alhamdulillah.

Still have things that I need to sort out. Hopefully boleh settle kan cepat. Pening kepala.

And omg I need to study. Shit. Takde mood nak bukak buku lah. Uninspired gila. Gedik kan, study pun nak inspiration lah tahapa jadah. Tak sedar diri. Maybank bagi warning nanti baru tahu haa dah dah tak nak fikir macam tu. First class mari hihi.

Oh and Rome tak payah lah violence and riots macam tu dah eh, please.

sweet dreams that we knew so well.

Wow it's been a while yes? Hmm haa. Entah lah, every time terasa nak tulis otak jadi blurred up and macam, entah. Ni pun macam tulis atas desakan orang (ahaha Tg :) Anyway yup I'm here now so let's see what random words I can put together to make sentences.

Yes I am in Manchester! Haha gila. Tapi betul. I've been here 24 days roughly. Ya Allah, 24 days dah. Nearly one month. Shoo that went by fast. Things have just been pretty hectic. Settling things like accommodation, classes, winter clothes and whatnot. Dah lah cuaca kat sini, Ya Rabbi. It's cold, yup very cold. And the fantastic thing is it's only getting colder. Tapi kan, I don't really mind. Except for the fact that my skin gets like dry and that, I like it cold. Sebab boleh bundle up in lots of layers which I actually like. And boleh bundle up bawah duvet tepi heater so macam, best.

I think it still hasn't sunk in that I'm here. By myself. No relatives nearby. No close friends. I'm having to make friends from scratch. Macam asasi lagi sekali. So if it's like asasi, I hope I make some awesome friends like I did back then. I knew I always wanted to have this experience, I guess I just never thought about how I would really feel if it really happened. This is scary.

But God has given me blessings. Things that have made it easier to handle being here. Alhamdulillah. Ada teman se-Law, hee Mira I'm so glad you're here witb me. Walaupun masa asasi tak pernah tegur, we're together now kan haha. And the seniors here are friendly. So welcoming. And my hall mates are so lovely. And I've met some awesome people in the lectures so kelas memang seronok sekarang.

I'm still adjusting though. I don't think I'll stop adjusting for a while. Skype and call Ibu and Ayah memang wajib. They keep me sane, honestly. They're the ones who keep me going. Haih okay tak nak tulis pasal parents nanti menangis kang masalah pulak tak tidur aku malam ni ish.

So yeah lectures have been pretty okay. The lecturers are super supportive, always making sure kita actually faham apa benda diorang merapu kat depan tu so they have question sessions and dialu-alukan untuk pergi jumpa diorang. One of my lecturers, the one I have for Public Law I and Constitutional Law, Dr Rodney Brazier, was apparently advisor to the Queen or something dulu so mamang dia sangat pakar bidang tu. Rasa macam rugi kalau tak petik at his brain kan.

Hmm tu je kot buat masa ni. I miss my family. I miss my friends. Oh and I wanna say thank you tau to the awesome people who sent me off kat KLIA haritu. Sumpah terharu sangat korang sanggup datang :') tak sangka gila. I look at the pictures and watch the videos all the freaking time - which doesn't exactly help me miss you less haha tapi makes me feel better.

I will come home.