burst and blossoms

Of froyo, donuts and croissants. I love how the words just pour out whenever we get together. Hai minah arab sorang ni. This shall not be the last okay :)

among my frivolous thoughts,

Pretty, kan? Yeah, really pretty. If He wills it I guess.

Leave the weeping to the willow tree.

I had a tiny philosophical-ish moment with one of the kids at work today. His name is Iman bytheway. Eh that rhymes. Hahaha okay wtv.

Iman: (freaking out) Teacher Alyn! Macam mana ni Iman tersilap tuliiiiiissssss.

Teacher: Takpe Iman no biggie, just cross it out. Tulis baru.

Iman: Oh okay. Everyone makes mistakes, right Teacher Alyn?

Teacher: (terkedu) Yes Iman.

Even little kids know that everyone makes mistakes. Terkejut dengar dia cakap macam tu. I was like, woah. It may seem like a small thing, and it probably was but it was just weird. Budak kecik hingus tak kering lagi boleh cakap dengan penuh konfiden nya, "everyone makes mistakes". Macam I got advice, or more of a reminder lah, from a 5 year old. Woke me up. Funny that, how you need a toddler to remind you that shit happens. Oh well.

I just have to remember that. And right now, I'm pretty lucky I guess. I mean, there are all these doors in front of me that are open and waiting. Half open lah. It's up to me, and fate, to determine which ones will fully open to accept me in. But the important thing is that the chances are still there, and right now nothing is certain and absolutely anything can happen. That's good.

I deserve a break.

And thank you Nadiayam, I knew you'd understand :'D

my midnight melody,

Haritu saya livestream dengan dia, awal2 pagi. Awal gila. Untuk dia saya sanggup. Dia cerita2 pasal diri dia, inspirasi menulis lirik2 lagu dia yang yang terlalu kebabom, persiapan untuk tour dia yang sedang dalam proses, rekod baru dia yang akan di-release tak lama lagi. Haa. Dia akan pergi ke Indonesia nanti, waduh. Saya mintak dia singgah Malaysia sekejap, sekejap je pun takpe. Dah dekat sangat dah. Dia kata mungkin.

Tengok tu dia senyum kat saya kan comel tu kan.

Hahaha feel free to ketuk me now, I would ketuk me now.

If I were to pluck on your heart strings, would you strum on mine?

Well, would you?

When ecstasy becomes cavalier.

'Cos you know, at least I can say that I tried. I don't have to use my waking moments pondering on what could have or should have. That'd just be such a waste.

Such a waste.

I guess I never really knew you. I thought I did, but I didn't. Nope. Turns out you're the same, exactly the same. Unoriginal, uncalled for, and yes unthinkably idiotic.

Really?

Yup, really. I didn't see it coming. Tip-toed around and hoped not to wake the sleeping kittens. For God's sake you are a nightmare.

Summit the sunset,

When can do summore? Nanti eh. Hee love you. Sangat. Gaaa.